Remembrance by Ryan Williams
What would my life be like if I had remembered everything that I should have? What if for that one instance I had remembered that girls name that I had forgotten the one night.
The girl that was so beautiful I would have killed the man next to me to talk to her. I had forgotten that beautiful girl's name. The girl that seemed to have liked me bought me drinks and told her friend how cute I was. When she asked what her name was, I told her I didn't know. I had forgotten not because I didn't care it was that when she was giving me her name my mind was elsewhere. I thought "This girl is so beautiful why is she talking to me." I hate myself because of it. The only word I can think of now that correlates with that bittersweet night is regret.
Regret is the feeling that follows the instant you can't remember something. Aside from the loss of a loved one or being lied to or cheated on, I think regret is one of the worst feelings a person can have because it is so personal. I regret to this day not remembering her name. I can only think what would have happened that night if I did.
Our flirtatious night would have lasted forever. Our legs locked, our hands clenched, our breaths deepening. One night could have turned into many. I would have never forgotten her name again. We would have spent every waking minute together.
Remembering her name would mean I would be with only her. Otherwise forgetting countless other names that didn't mean as much to me as hers did. I would to this day be faithful. I would be talking about that night with her as the day our lives changed, not as that one day I regret in my life.
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